A 'no', for now...

Today I got the call to say that have not got a place on the Health Visiting course... and I expected this. I'm not a negative person, just realistic. The interview didn't go as well as it could have and there was a lot of competition, so I kinda saw it coming. However, once I had finished the conversation that confirmed my prediction I just cried.. and cried, despite telling myself to pull myself together! I now feel a bit stupid about it as I had suspected it so I'm not really sure why I got quite so upset.. probably wasn't helped by the fact that I was home alone, so no one to console me!

I have now, after a few hours of feeling sorry for myself, managed to put myself back together and no longer believe my hopes and plans are completely ruined (I realised that I was over-reacting!). I'm still slightly confused as to how something could feel so right and then just flop... but I'm holding onto the promises that God has for me...

'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future'. Jeremiah 29:11

We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts. Isaiah 55:9

God has a plan for me far greater than I could ever imagine, so this might be a permanent 'no' or it might be a 'not yet', we'll just have to wait and see...

I still learnt how to improve in interviews, and I was very lucky to even get through to the interview stage, considering I wrote my personal statement rushed in a weekend and only about 150 people from 600 applicants get to interview. I can also re-apply if posts come out again, so hope is not lost.

I must also remember that I am infact very blessed to be in this position - in a few months I will (hopefully)  have a degree and professional qualification, in 6 months time I will be married to the most wonderful and amazing man, I have good health, I have amazing friends and family around me and I'm writing this blog from the comfort and warmth of my own home. 

So all in all life is good and tomorrow is a new day.